My mind races with possibilities.
What if:
- I’m wrong
- I’m right
- I’m a sucker
- I’m stupid
Is it even a possibility to have the future I’ve been yearning? For days? For months? For years? Centuries?
Is there really a future like this?
I’m not the person I was ten years ago, nor 6 months ago, nor even last week; yet I am. I’m more me than ever before. I’ve been discovering me.
The me who chose to be here, to live, dream, learn… I feel like I’m finally coming home.
There’s a different peace found inside, a contentment, a new feeling still to be labeled. It’s mixed with fear and anticipation, joy, satisfaction… a feeling of rightness.
I cannot explain. Why am I here? Is this life to be tolerated, ignored, made to wait?
Or is it meant to be lived?
When I take a leap it’s never without planning and much contemplation. This leap to be made is different from all others. Abandonment of my norm, a willingness to actually trust my deepest core, to let my soul fly free?
Courage to face the unknown with the richness of a life lived well. Words to describe. Truthfully? Am I able? Yes. Am I capable? Yes. Am I willing? Yes.
Fear.
Real tangible fear.
How much longer will I allow fear to rule me? No longer!
I see fear for what it is. Lies. Lies to prevent goodness. Lies to prevent me from living, truly living. Lies to keep me small.
Each moment I listen to my soul, without fail, I am never lead wrong. Every trouble I’ve had, every evil I’ve lived, dampened my ears and closed my mind from my true self. Yet, even then, I could still hear the whispers. I tried desperately to ignore them but they never completely went away. Over time I’ve become better at listening to me, my core. My core speaks and this time I listen.
There is no fear when I trust myself because I will never be lead wrong by the one who knows me like no other, my core and my soul. The mystical part of me that has no definition, that part.
Happiness. Tears. Peace. Rest.
It is right. It is good.
Thank you for reading,
Dr. Wendi
The Be Healthy Advantage 